As many times as I blink I'll think of you...tonight =)

Sometimes I find it difficult to figure myself out.
I mean seriously!
How and Why would I give you so many chances.
Its my fault.
Totally mine.
And I hate 'me' for this.

But I guess I'm done with you and all your crap.
Kindly get the hell out of my life!

P.S- Fb can really screw with your head. So apart from everything else, you also get blocked on fb. No more annoying pictures...no more fakeness...no more you.

“Life's disappointments are harder to take when you don't know any swear words.”
- Calvin & Hobbes

Dear Diary - 2

There have been times when I've had no idea why I like certain things. A few years earlier I was in love with everything and anything that was happy and bright. I was the kinda girl who was in love with the world.

Someone made me feel awesome today. Almost reminded me of the girl I was a few years earlier. I'm so damn glad I've met certain people in life.  Im so damn glad I met you. I know I've annoyed you, been unreasonable and painfully shy about the simplest things.

I just want to thank you for all the love.


P.S-Also, I kinda inspired my friend to write his own blog in someway. I mean I've never really inspired anyone to do anything before today. I feel happy.

I feel 'yaayy'.

=)

I know you think I dont like you too much.

Well your absolutely spot on!

I dont.

And I'm glad we're clear about this.
 

Dear Diary

When I'm upset I normally just cut myself off from the world. Today seemed like one such day. I woke up with my eyes all teared up. I felt low,depressed, messed up and very hungry all at the same time.Yeah I feel really hungry just after I wake up. I don't know why that would be important. But moving on, I guess I felt upset more than anything else. Today is not the only day when I woke up with tears in my eyes. Infact I've had a couple of such mornings. Today's episode reminded me of all those times. Sigh.

Anyway I got dressed, plugged my ears with music, took the train for college and wished  I was invisible. Just for today. Just at that moment the lady seated  opposite, smiled at me. I wasn't in a mood to smile back and I didn't force myself too. Yeah I can be mean at times. Anyway she was with this young girl who looked a little shy and was probably  in her teens. The girl wore a suit salwar and had her head covered with a veil. The veil covered almost all of her face and I could only see her eyes. The lady smiled again and I looked at her wondering if she needed help with the directions. This time the lady spoke. She said her daughter wanted denims just like mine for her birthday. I smiled. Although the lady spoke in a tone as normal as could be, I thought there was something so sweet about the whole thing. I told the lady where she could get the same denims. I couldn't really see  her daughter's face but her eyes sure looked as if she was smiling. I too left the train with a smile , feeling a lot  better :) 

P.S- Dear girl in a veil, your mum is really sweet and so are you. I hope you get your pair of denims soon. :)

Thank you for my sunshine moment.

Love.

=)

Love Actually

Prime Minister- Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often, it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know, none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaking suspicion... love actually is all around.

-Love Actually

 Peace

 =)

Xaviers!

Its been 5 months since I met my college gang. Five long months. Its quite strange considering we met every single day, sat on the same last bench, slept through every boring  presentation and in all spent some of the most awesome days together :)

 Somedays I really miss Xaviers.
 Apart from the hugs, tears and happy faces...

I miss the early morning train journey.

Calling up riddhi at 7:30 am sharp everyday to know which classroom I had to be in. Everyday.

Reaching class half dead after climbing 4 floors and falling back to sleep.

Clicking pictures of ourselves during an on going lecture.

Studying over the phone with taci.

Getting drunk in the afternoon.

Skipping exams and going out for breakfast.

Attending the most amasing presentations made by fellow classmates.

Rikki trying to copy  from me and getting caught.
 
Marine drive walks.

Nats pulling us all out of campus to 'hang out'

Mel jiving with Taci and me together.

Nimmy cracking 'pjs' that I never really understood but which Janey and Rikki found really funny. Sigh .

Throwing Rach a surprise birthday party two months after her actual birthdate.

And ofcourse I also discovered that this  friend who I hang out with is actually my cousin. Now how amazing is that! :D

Honeslty I dont really have complaints about my life today and I dont miss college everyday. But just a while ago I got a call from a friend who's now abroad and it brought that stupid college days smile on my face.

I guess thats what I miss the most. :D

Weee :D

Happiness is a good feeling...and i feel happy today
maybe because its raining...and i happen to love the rains
or maybe because its you-
or just me!
because we both know we're awesome..and awesome we will be <3
so lets not pretend...and lets just be!

young.. in love..true friends..soulmates..awesome

happy <3